“Who I am”

Posted by jewellove on November 22, 2007 · 1 Comment

I am tall and lean yet inadequate to qualify for a modelling audition, though i haven’t attempted, since guts walk away from me. I was an ugly duckling during my highschool days, but thanks to my above average IQ, i was able to keep some friends which i assumed were more fascinated in my scholastic standing than my human placid exterior. During my teen-age years, the girls in my age were busy experimenting and savoring the delight of puberty by having boyfriends and engging in pre-marital sex while i was in a dilemma of impressing my family of my school achievements.

I had good grades, awards and distinctions citing my exemplary school performance. Just after college graduaton, I got pregnant (uhm..i even attempted to abort Caleb.. oooppss but that was only in my hysterical fantasy), the father of my son wanted to marry me, it was just only my family who disapproved it. Imagine, from unhappy childhood to boring teen-age years and now came and waving ‘The Motherhood” stage. It was a suicidal move. My clan considered me a curse, my name which was always in the table topics vanished and prohibited to utter. I was outcasted and i felt like my life was instantly derailed. I was 20 yrs. old then, 2 months pregnant, unmarried and tormented. Carrying a life in my womb was a staggering realization that my life was over. Nine months had flown fast and i woke up one day seeing this tiny little fellow sleeping so peacefully beside me.

With my Caleb, my world had been restored and he even embeded hope in it. I had matured graciously, ripened by the aura of motherhood, i transformed into a strong woman ready to face everything. The protected now became the protector. The wisdom i had learned was incomparable to any schools and institutions i enrolled with. It can never be taught nor acquired. It was something innate from yourself that you surprisingly understand. I had learned to love , forget, forgive, understand and accept defeat but above all else it was GOD backing me all the way.

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