Sometimes I just Want To Run Away

I hate it that he makes me happy. He puts me into a state of euphoria wherein I get weak and I get lost. I get weak in his arms and I get lost in a world I never knew existed, a world where it’s only the two of us.

Every moment spent with him is just pure bliss. It’s incomparable. What we have is just simple, we don’t dine at a fancy restaurant or something close to that, we spend quality time together just by talking to each other. *sigh* It’s just priceless. Time flies when I’m with him. Napakahirap pag kailangan ko ng bumaba ng kotse after spending the night with him.

“Kung pwede lang kita iuwi inuwi na kita….” ihihirit nya.

Hoy, pwede wag kang magbiro ng ganyan kasi sasama talaga ako sayo! wahahahaha! Alam nyo ung ganong feeling? Ang hirap magpart ways.

Everyone knows how happy I am, but I can’t help it but to feel guilty. He makes me happy but I’m not sure if I make him happy the way he makes me happy. I feel guilty cause I’m gonna be the “bad guy” – I’m gonna leave the country very soon, I’m gonna leave him soon. I couldn’t help it but to ask God why he sent someone like him at this time of my life. What is he trying to point out? He allows me to experience this feeling yet, in no time, I know that it’s gonna end. What is He trying to teach me? That happiness is just temporary? That I have no right to be truly happy? What is He trying to say to me?

I just want to make him happy and I don’t know if I’m doing a job at it. I know he’s setting his limits because he doesn’t want to get hurt in the end. i dont want to hurt him, that’s the last thing that i want to do. I don’t want to be that person. He doesn’t deserve it.

Should I just run away and leave him alone? Or should I just grab this chance to be happy?

Sometimes I just want to run away…

Can I just see you every morning when I open my eyes
Can I just feel your heart beating beside me Every night
Can we just feel this way together Till the end of all time
Can I just spend my life with you

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