My Christmas Lover
It all started last night when my charms didn’t work for my Christmas Lovah. I was making “pa-cute†at him over the phone last night, (cheesy but I can be a little baduy when I miss someone so bad) I thought I made it clear how much I miss him and that I’m starting to hate him for making me miss him this much. (This is all his fault! I so hate him!)
Our conversation pretty much went well; he said he was still at work and that his day wasn’t toxic, blah blah blah, Until he gave a me a what the h*ll answer to a supposedly “lambing†hirit.
“I miss youâ€
“kakakita lang natin recently ah, nung saturday?â€
What the h*ll, right? Hello?! Tuesday na ngayon! You didn’t bother to text me or to wish me luck for my finals nung Sunday or nung Monday. A text would be fine, really. I’m not asking him to make me his top priority; I just wish I pass by his thoughts at least once a day or the most, once a day.
Here’s another winner, After our 3 minute conversation over the phone, I texted him if he would still pass by my place, he didn’t reply. FYI, village namin magkatabi lang.
This is the problem with girls, everything’s already in front of them but they don’t seem to get it. Our thing would not work because he won’t let it. C’mon! If he wanted to, he would make an effort, knowing him, he is that type. He can make you feel SPECIAL if he wanted to. I heard his stories.
Maybe I’m just pushing too much. I want this to work out though but if it’s just a one way street, walana patutunguhan. He’s just not into me. Period. Or maybe he is, but for other reasons.
It’s just ironic how a guy, who is your-friend-but-doesn’t-care-much-for-you, can easily take all your problems and worries in just a snap. As I’ve mentioned in one of my previous entries, because of him, I’ve started to live life again, I never knew life could be this better. Yes, I am and I feel very different when I’m with him. Our Christmas love affair would be remembered and, probably, laughed at. (because of its history and how it all started, haha! I just hope he doesn’t get a chance to access my new site, oh well, who the h*ll would read this?)
I don’t hate him. He’s just being a guy.
Honestly, I’m thankful cause he just proved my theory on men.
I just didn’t expect that he’s the one who’s gonna prove my own theory.
Life goes on, I’ve been through worse.
He made me happy, what more could I ask for?
