posted without a name.

Hello dear love.:)

this one’s for you. though its open to all, still, they all know that im referring to you and only you. everybody may read this out loud, and remember this letter, but nobody can claim it but you. ayt?:x

i dont want you to cry much, cause i really think i made you cry more than enough already. i’ll name this post after your name.. just so, everybody will know you as the one i love. im proud of you.. and i wanted everybody to know who i love, and why i love her so much.. i love you. i love even the imperfection you possess, every small detail you have makes me love you more and more.

the truth is, i never courted you to be my girlfriend.. i courted you to be my wife. i never really thought of ending this relationship anyway.. all i know is, i’ll love you no matter what. no matter what you did, do or will do, its okay.. youre somebody invincible, somebody i cant curse, youre God’s gift to me.. i never treated you as my girlfriend, im treating you as my future wife. i know my love’s not as shallow as having you or treating you as low as that. you must know this, since you came into my life, it never felt any better ever since.

i loved you, love you and will always love you. i loved you even before i even met you! for years i’ve been waiting, for years i’ve been loving your unseen face. for years i’ve been loving your shadow.. i knew i loved you a long time ago. all these time, ive been thinking of you. but i never really guess thats its you.. most of the time, i thought it was somebody else. i gave a part of my love for you to them.. and its funny how you let them lend my heart for a while. now we both know who this heart is for… its for you… it has your name written on it.:)

i love you, and i can never take my love back. my heart beats for you and i can never let it stop. i can never say this all in exact words. i just do love you. much than you ever know.. much more than what i show to you. more than how much people see it.. more than how much i repeatedly say this to you. i can never tell this in series of repetition. i can never tell this in numbers of infinity. i can never define this in a song. my love, my dear love to you.. its more than anything i can think of.

i do believe that i’ll love you. love you more than i have loved you today. it grows on to me as each morning passes by. i dream of being with you.. i dream of growing old with you. i dream of your fading beauty, i dream of loving it in fact. i never thought of how we’d die. all i know is that being with you, makes me forget of mortality. this life that bounds us to living love.

when i met you, i believed that forever’s not fiction. but i know forever has to end soon.. i know i wont live long.. i know its impossible to love you forever. but.. i promise you this. this heart, whom you own, is yours— forever and ever.

i never think of things bad but, we may part ways someday.. we may soon end this drama of love.

you may find another, you may find somebody else who will love you the way i do love you now. you may look back some day and think of me.. of these words i told you.. of the promises we made; promises we broke. of these thoughts of forever with you.. of these hopes we held on to.. those sweet talks.. those nights in the phone.. those mornings we been together.. those sweet looks.. kisses and hugs.. moments when we hold hands infront of people.. the secrets we shared and made.. those nights of crying all because we miss each other.. those nights of anger and misunderstandings.. look back on the night you read this blog i made you, which made you smile, or even cry! you may look back to me some day and say, “i loved this person before..” you may look back to me some day as an old friend who made you smile for a moment.

you may forget everything weve been through, every lil’ thing that made you love me. every little effort i made to make you smile, every foolish act i made to make you laugh. its okay.. your poor old memory wont be a reason for me to hate you. my love for you knows its place.

but to me, its more than this post! its more than every smile i gave you, or every flower i picked for you.. its more than all the love poems i made for you! more than every tear i gave you, more than every blush i gave you.. its more than the gifts i received from you. more than the movies we’ve seen. more than all the dates we’ve gone in together.. more than those storm who wrecked our house. more than the dreams weve held on.. youre more than just a friend who took a great part of my being. what we had was more than a milestone to my life. youre more than just a friend to me.

YOURE MORE THAN A FRIEND TO ME. youre somebody who made me love life. youre somebody who made me cry cause of joy. i love you. and even if we part ways, youre still a big part in my heart.

i have you now, and i wont lie to you as i say this words. i will make sure we dont part ways.. i dont want to lose you, thats for sure. i cant promise that i wont hurt you, i cant promise that i can be what you always wanted. all i can give you is me, plain me.. i can give you more but i cant promise that i can be anything you want. im sorry. but i promise you this, im trying to excel in most of my agendas for you. you give me inspiration to give an extra mile in everything i do. you give me reasons to be better. you give me reasons to be stronger. or atleast strong enough to handle and endure life’s tragedies.

i may not be here in the future, and let me be the first one to tell you that i dont want it that way. i want to be with you. youre my life. youre my world. youre everything to me. i must tell you, i’ve been crying writing this.. it really hits my heart. all of these words are tested and true. words are words, still, this letter wont tell you even half of what i really feel for you. my love for you and your worth to me cant be put into words.

i know you love me, thank you. i do love you too. i loved you, love you, and will love you— now, and till forever ends. till my forever ends, and till yours does.

i love you.